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"i feel like i am that adam incarnate, like i've never related to a theological parable or one of these stories so much as i relate to this iteration of adam," she says. "I have lurched through my living trying to fill that hole with alcohol and narcotics ... but then also, you know, praise and communion and and success and all of these things that are completely extrinsic to my actual person i."