I want to re discover or sink into my true self, which is inherently satisfiedand and having that mometic desireo having people around you that want that. In mya experience, it's been vedanta, i have been far more successful, far less stressed. I serve five times a week. I work mamual meetings on wenay, no meetings on wednesdays and fridays. But of course, i used to go to the alcohol because i was in mourning. It wasn't working. And now the things that are remaining, the food addictions or whatever, it just takes that consciousness to stop and go,. What am i meditating like? How