The letter came barely to monts after i had been in and was that get out of here as soon as possible. And the letter said that the rebels were going to kill you, right? I still have that letter. In a situation like that,you don't want to show that you're a coward. That's one. Two, how could i desert and leve children dropping dead like flies? How could i desert people who were dying of treatable diseases? It would be highly immoral.