I'm Wordless Right Now

I just want to have to take a deep breath, you know, because it just, yeah, I find myself wordless right now. There is something about the word spoken that both deeply disturbs but also brings comfort like yes I say yes to this and yet I know this whole season has exposed my own illusions and idolatry. We will keep speaking. But in so many ways it feels like perhaps a wiser course would be to let there be 10 minutes of silence as even in our own wordy wordlessness at least mind.