How Did Your Mother's Depression Affect Your Relationship With God?

Rilko was born into a family of 14 children. Her relationship with her own parents was very distant. She felt that god would aeyou as a jew, well, as a jew, but also personally om in some funny way. And so i think her connection to this father god was very much about the idealized father that she wished she had. But my connection to this god, which i mention in the introduction to the rilko book, a, was was a sort of a strained one, in a way.