i always adupt li pacing round my room, thinking back on what i'm doing. And one of the things i've realized is that in this case, i'm a hypocrite because i allowd them to talk to me and don't see any problem with it. But i feel ik if i go to them with my problem, i'm burdening them with problems that they don't need to deal with. It's a combination of guilt and also just my mind canthey,. i think it isfa may be an excused my mind. I cane telling me, which id that er, if i do tell them, they might not be able to help me with it,