How Did You Cope With Your First Suicide?

I went to counseling one day and my therapist didn't do anything in particular to set it off. I just decided in the middle of session that this is it. I'm done. And so I went out my car and I sat there and started taking a bunch of pills. Got halfway through taking the pills and just freaked out. It was agonizing. Those must have been a couple of tough two or three weeks. Do you remember? I didn't kept spiraling further and further and further down. You're doing something and I don't want to poke too hard. But remember, a lot of the podcasts around helping people feel like they're not alone. So I really do