The Ego's Bondage and the Power of Surrender

In this deeply vulnerable and powerful episode of Dom Sub Devotion, Andrew sits down with longtime friend Christina McBoyle (known on Instagram as @solar.feminine.arts), to explore the humbling, life-altering journey she has been walking through marriage, motherhood, and identity death.

Christina shares intimately about her evolution from being a widely recognized feminine embodiment teacher to being initiated into living her teachings on an entirely new level. After marrying her husband Ryan within six weeks of meeting, becoming pregnant shortly after, and moving through the intense transformations of wifehood and motherhood, Christina realized that the very identity as a teacher and healer that had once empowered her was now standing in the way of the deeper love and union she craved.

This conversation covers:

 • How Christina’s years of teaching feminine embodiment eventually revealed hidden blind spots in her own life

 • The moment she realized her work was blocking her capacity to fully surrender in marriage

 • The subtle ways purpose and service can become hidden ego attachments for women

 • The painful but essential process of descending into deeper truth and authenticity

 • What it really feels like to give up old identities and allow love, devotion, and motherhood to fully reshape you

 • A raw discussion about women, work, purpose, survival mechanisms, and letting go

 • Why true union requires ego death—and how that’s more liberating than terrifying

 • Practical wisdom for women feeling the tension between their careers and their deepest relational desires

This is a rare, real, unscripted conversation between two people devoted to living what they teach—not performing it. If you are a woman navigating the gap between what you know and what you live, or if you’re longing for a deeper experience of love, union, and surrender, this episode will speak straight to your soul.

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Guest: 

Christina McBoyle 

Instagram: @solar.feminine.arts

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00:33 Meet Christina Mc Boyle

01:17 Christina's Journey in Healing Arts

02:29 The Shift to Feminine and Masculine Energy

03:58 Meeting Ryan and Transformative Union

05:49 The Challenges of Teaching and Living Union

09:19 Identity Death and Authenticity

25:32 The Necessity of Patience and Ego Death

30:44 Understanding the Concept of Descent

31:32 The Misconception of Submission

33:01 The Deepest Freedom in Surrender

35:56 Motherhood and Identity Death

39:53 Balancing Work and Relationship

45:19 The Feminine Imperative and Desire

53:48 The Process of Letting Go

57:23 Final Thoughts and Reflections