Tolstoy's Story

Tolstoy's story, and tolstoy says, accounts for his collapse in the stability of christian belief. He said he was not physically nor mentally healthy but enjoyed a physical and mental vigour i had rarely encountered among others my age. In such a state of affairs, i came to a point where i could not live. And even though i feared death, i had to employ ruses against myself to keep from committing suicide. You don't believe in what you believe. You believe in something that's deeper than that.