I'm in the Abyss Cause I Won

There is the initiation and descent into the abyss, like we go into the darkness. I love this because it can happen because of a catastrophe in the heroine's life. The ladder was leaning against the wrong wall, right? And the counter intuitive thing is i'm in the abyss cause i won. Yes, everybody think it was somebody's version of successful. But it doesn't feel like that. Feels become essential. So feelings connect us to our inner truth.