Is This Sin Worth This Relationship With Allah?

When I find myself in the state of disobedience, I'm not proud of it. And I want to be from those that obey you. Even if I was amongst those that used to disobey you, I always loved those people that obeyed you. Oh Allah count me among those that love you sincerely and that are beloved to you. Is this sin worth this relationship with Allah? Not just is this sin worth hellfire or punishment? Is it worth distance from Allah subhanahu wa ta'al?