I think what's going on is that deep down you feel to a certain degree unlovable. And so before they even reject you or accept you, it's like you can't wait in the waiting room and itlike feels so terrible that you just end up blocking them. It's okay for things to be contradictory because that's how our brain works. Like she can't leave that. She's got to match your intent. I would need time to process. Especially if I'm into you.