Is It Iness, Is That What They're Talking About?

Is this freedom of spirit something that exists like a primordial ocean? Or is it something that exists as a by product of, you know, being in a society where we've been conditioned so deeply that we've lost track of our connection to the spirit? The reason i'm asking the question is because i feel like i've caught glimpses of this emptiness. And then when i'm reading allan watts or any of these brilliant minds, right away, there's like this. It's almost as though it's designed till i annihilate that thought of like, o i've caught a glimpse of emptiness, you know. Chogum trumper impiche says, disown it all