The Worst That Could Happen?

i was so desperate to go see him, but at the same time, like, i just didn't even want to. What if something happened to him? Or what if he's got to be in there for, like, a month? How are they going to know? Like, why can't a nurse just sit there and stare at him? A couple of times im, i remember i crouching on the bathroom floor, just totally bawling and thinking like, ok, what's the worst that could happen? And then from then on out, it was like, alright, i've acknowledged that that can happen. When sasha was unhooked for the first time, i