I understand that like. Women don't want to wait their time with someone that's not showing interest 100%. I didn't, I don't feel resentful for that kind of interactions because at the end, I know that's kind of on me and that there's things that I have to work on. Because of all of it, it's very hard for me to open up. So even though I'm longing for this,. I romantic relationship. I End up sabotaging a lot.