I finally had you know for the first time in my life a small sense of trust in my own judgment more than the church. The idea that I could be right about something and that they might be wrong about something never like I would never have put any faith in that idea until it was this logical contradictionYeah tell me about that because of the I mean of course you know it's impossible to I'm not a sequestered juror here but I would like to hear about the sure the there are two people on Twitter and you talk about a lot David and the person who became your husband and the the the the thing about the catching.