Comedy was helping pull you out of something for me it did it did yeah it did but I mean again if if you don't know that you're not having the best time or it's what's on the other side of the wall then you know how can you stress over itYeah I was bullied bullying I mean didn't that help? When you do talent shows when you start doing stand up you have that identity that confidence. The next day everybody's like dude that was great blah blah blah and everybody's from being unseen to seen by everyone all of a sudden. That is a rush and a half right there and it's protecting you. You go into the cave like Tony Stark the