Is There a Connection Between the Universe and the Universe?

I found myself struggling more and more with as I got older but found myself quite isolated in that. Adam who was running it had been part of a kind of darker group called the temple of psychic youth. He would sort of say to us oh you know we should be practicing a very pure path and you know no drugs, meditating every day or anything like that. And he was actually quite particular about sexual practices as well which I struggled with because I sensed that there was judgment as I discovered later on down the line there was. But not something that I sort of dived into and Adam had got tired of it and and got into Gnosticism.