"I feel like the last six months I've been getting kicked in the fucking balls yeah but isn't that," he says. "People who live fulfilling lives that matter and I'm not talking just financially and every way those people are do exactly what Sal just said put their  heads down and they push." He also talks about his love of narcos, Pablo Escobar and how to get into a fight with your ex-boyfriend's new girlfriend. The full interview will be available on Friday at 10 p.m. ET/PT via CNN iReport.