Do You Want a Pillow?

"I was in that mixed episode where I'm just irritable and agitated," she says. "It's not the euphoric high anymore." In December 2019, after struggling with thoughts of suicide for like a couple of months, Sarah couldn't do it anymore. She gathered up a bunch of pills, went to the park and took them almost all by herself. The doctor wanted her to stay at the hospital until he could adjust her medication.