The Terror of Knowing What's Going On

I think I'm very happy every single podcast I did previous to this. There's a strange sense of calm that comes from it also but in the middle of the night when you can't sleep sometimes you feel happy knowing what they're trying to do to you. They have to shame you which is why they chose the crimes they did for me and it's why they usually choose the crimes they choose because it's heinous. When you have power you have to be very very careful with how you use that power. The second you overuse it there's a revolution and we're in Romania so they know all about that. Full disclosure you don't have any suicidal thoughts. Never under any circumstance