I Was Utterly Devoted to Both of Them

The relationship between steveer cardew and francis lucille was uncannily similar. In particular, th the extent of my devotion, the extent to which i was willing to submit myself to another person in order to learn what they had to teach. And i was utterly devoted to both of themo the extent that i can have gave up my own view. But it also came with a shadow in that i had to liberate myself, in both cases, from both teachers in order to which didn't involve any kind of rejection of either of them. I think it's what they mean when they say, in buddhism, if you meet the buddha on the way,