Do You Feel Like You're Trying to Be Good?

I think of my essays as the expression of someone is trying to. Understand reality, which I don't know if that sounds pretentious,. Just trying to understand the truth, trying to understand what I see around me. Is it is an inevitably futile quest if you are aiming at perfection? But I think also like trying to be good is something that you. always have to keep doing. It's a daily Occupation.