The Disappointment of Finding the Metaphysical Grounding of Reality

I find it interesting too that you were venturing more into history and archaeology, which are, I guess, especially archaeology, a bit more tangible kind of grounding. What were you finding as you were kind of putting the metaphysical on the background and searching more for the tangible? It became such a great disappointment really, because I didn't really find what I was hoping for," she says. "It actually only sort of went further into this sort of almost despair to think"