I'm Not Constantly Aware of My Emotions

An artistic person, i've struggled mostly with other people's emotional reactions and like not understanding where they were coming from. It takes me a while to understand the most people are, at least if you ask them, are constantly feeling something. I think an average person is inside, underneath the water, in the river of emotions that is within them. Whereas i'm above the tranquil water, in a little dingy and i get the occasional little wave, but i don't know what's below the surface. So itre funny enough, when you said that you don't feel them intensely,. It's almost the opposite when i feel them properly. If i had to reflect back on any one