How Did You Stay Saying Between Sessions While You Were Trap Processing?

I didn't realize how tromatized and how emotionally constipated i was, you know. I had never felt id, never nothing remotely that deep ever in my life until i did that. It's crazy for me to think about what i was like even six or seven years ago - ten or 15 years ago. In a lot of ways, i was the same person, but not, it's almost like, i don't even know that dude from 15 years ago,. You know, you ever want to change your name? No, nn, not at all.