I think mine started actually from, instead of being the hero i was a i might have ben the hero in that i survived. I always felt more like a wounded healer when larry crabb says, you know, i don't trust a guy didn't walk with a limp. And so i always felt like, h i've been there and so, and i got out, so i can show you how to get out of it. We're i think the parallel for me is money. Always tell people with money, get some money. But if you eat enough lobster, it tastes like soap. Where you'll find most happiness with money as, yes, enjoy some of it,