How Did You Stop Subscribing to That?

I really hit that rock bottom where it's like I've done a lot of really cool things maybe I just pack my bags and go and do something else. But the second that you do that thenlike that really cool thing around the corner happens and you're like all right well I guess I'm meant to do thisyou know. So I would always find myself sucked back in whether it be like a you know song got placed and you know Laguna Beach or you know a show that are a movie or something that I would just be like well that was awesome you know. And so we just like my brother and I just totally struggled with our parents' deaths which kind of broke me down