Is the Pain Helping You?

Is the pain needed somehow? Am i able to do more good because of my acute attention to this pain? Or am i doing less good my less capable? Case in point, when i was a media studies major, and watching all the panama deception and reading all nomchomski, i was destroyed by the information. Knowing all the terrible things made me get so depressed that i couldn't actively do anything. So after you know, if the situation is hurting you and your ability to act on anything positive,. And i'm not saying like you have control. I mean, we're going to get there, but it's not like it's your fault if you have been suffering this