"It was ugly, but it was it was super engaging and I learned a lot about the incident," he says. "I realized civilian life sucks really bad It's not great compared to the communities that we came from there's no camaraderie." Deliberately putting yourself in harm's way intentionally is an act of self-sacrificing bravery for those who have been through hell with or without their loved ones. The experience has inspired him to start his own business called Deliberate Maniacs.