The Dilemma of a Relationship With Jesus

I was really struck by this um you know men I've loved before who couldn't love me back like is that a relationship with the j with Jesus that you have there or are we talking about more men in the physical realm. The bigger theme the noble theme of the book is like you know forgive yourself for falling in love with men who are bad to you and I definitely you know do that every day but yes I still pursue toxic men from some toxic place inside myself.