When you are really ry, mart, what happens is the higher mind. But when you get low on the ladder, you get this primitive fog in your head. One of the insights that helped me the most was t e understanding that i am just as likely to fall for all this yet as any one else - maybe more so than Antwerd lay. That's why it's good to even talk about it publicly. Start ptart to proclaim yourself as this kindo and you will start to defend that in your own head. And when you're being a zealot, it'll now conflict with your primitive mind's identity.