Are You Not Full of Joy?

I think the frustration in my life at least is the places where I'm not yet fully alive. And so what comes to mind is lack of being, could we say it's a lack of human being who you were designed to be? So as humans, we are affected by experiences and experiences change us. If you put if you have a lot of negative experiences, that'll affect the baby and how they develop. How they grew up if they had a lot of positive experiences that affects them.