Emmy is ia sort of a visual thing. I think that's why i found bobby braddock's book so exhausting, it's because everything is felt. And sparky, sparky was everest, high altitude infatuation. That's what gets the animal instinct of people to go out and get a gun,. blow somebody's brains out, or some gun. Not being can't stand the thought ofo someone. Hemand sex were the person that he loves. Braddock and sparky were on and off lovers for years. It was intense, painful, euphoric. When it ended, braddock was in pieces. He kept her picture on wa went half crazy.