Adriana: I think this most unfortunate things after traumatic experiences especially sexual lenses you know you feel not okay but you should feel okay. Then what you end up doing is contorting yourself to like fit back into society right because there's a part of you that's sort of like twisted out of shape and then when we try to plug back in we don't fit yeah. And the biggest problem is that we don't really know like and then it becomes an us problem like it's my fault now that I'm so fucked up, Adriana says.