The Most Painful Thing I've Ever Had to Deal With

I think what it really showed me was how strong I am actually so it wasn't like something that was like I had to work Through and get through the pain while writing. It was like there was a pattern I saw myself always talking back or like standing up for myself and not and I was questioning why I was such a bad cadet. Now I look back and I'm like oh my gosh I couldn't conform because I had too much of my own Personality. They try to stop you from leaving they convince you to stay whether it's be via like Oh, let's put you on a different post or in my case by saying we're still Scientologists even if you want to