Is This Like Origin Story of Myself?

i remember feeling like utterly de sexualized because i was sort of the clown. But there was something like liberating in that for me. I don't mean, i was defiit, like horny and like obsessed with sex,. but like that, youre just not in my roam. Wasn't happen whatsoever. And a, but a, it was just, i mean, i remember, we were going to change into cool clothes to go to the guy's house. We went over to the skys house, and there was another guy there. He told Eoya: 'You should be careful though, cause guys don't like girls who are funny, because it reminds them too