We're Blind to Our Own Habits and Patterns, and We Don't Even See Ourself

A lot of us are blind to our own vortex. We don't even see ourselves for ourselves, or within these habits and patterns. And how this played out in my early relationship with lolly. I would have this period of activation that would happen leading up to the visit so i would know that family dinner was happening on sunday. So i would start to feel agitated. Nd this agitation would leak out in my relationship with lolly. She would join me at home. And what i would begin to do now to cope with my agitation is what i love to do back at that time period of my life, which was to drink, to ate, to numb. None of