When you fail, why does the failure hurt so much? It's because it doesn't advance you towards your goal. If i reach the point where i have done all those things, then all of a sudden it doesn't matter if it stops declining. I did what i need it y not terye, i'm with you. And that's what i'm really hearing, is that for you, the goal is freedom freedom from needing to worry about the consequences of your actions. That's what id like to think. But let's reverse it, ok? So let's look at it this way. Let's say that ou've got a hundred million dollars, i don't know