I'm Going Back to Zero, I'll Try Leeches

How did you not know what it was beforehand? And so how had you not, again, not in a judgy way, did it occur to you during those nine pain years to try it? Or was it that 30 third birthday? Like, i am going back to zero, and i am trying everything. I will try leeches. Why? Why do i have to live like this? Yes, yes. Big difference. Betwen a suisort of thought and o sord of tendency at never had the tendencyah,. but so that nony maka a, i idot meditationand if got advantasia, so i can't llowy see anything.