Are You Really Listening to Things?

i have a fundamental problem in being in closed room, in a seminar, i fall asleep. It us that there's some part of my, part of me, that is just designed to absorb reading and listening. And the minute you put me in a position where i can talk and i'm not allowed to, it just, you know, i have to fight it a lot. Im forty seven so i've learned a little bit of how to deal with it. But at some point, i think in ou free wheeling listening er, what is tha difference between ar you hearing things, and are you actually listening to things? Is is is aso.