Why I Wouldn't Make This Investment

I was in the middle of my 25k month while I was making the decision but it was so hard for you because you don't believe in yourself. All of the reasons were just a lack of belief in me like I've never invested at this level what if I don't go all in and get everything out of it? It had zero to do with you or your circumstances. Everything about it was about me  and as soon as I saw that literally Like in black and white it's small that's stupid like I'll just believe in myself and it'll be fun yeah I hated that.