i don't think you need to get rid of your fear. This is the whole problem, is that, like, you're always rejecting parts of yourself. We ane esang o po, no, you don't. That's what needs to change. It's ok brow that that is deeply unsettling. I suspect maybe you can overcome it. But i'd say that they're easier, not easier, faster,. Letting it gon like entering a territory where it can't do its job could be very scary. You have fashioned such a brilliant and capable intellectual ego so letting it go would be uncomfortable for you. And ultimately, that's what you need, is like, emotional healing