I Don't Care, or I Would Rather Have a Choice to Care

I've talked about depression really deeply only a couple of times on this show. The most extreme form is i had no connection to what used to bring me joy. You're like an emotional void. And because you're not feeling any emotions, what are you experiencing? It's almost like apathy. But even apathy has like some intention behind it. I don't care as a better feeling than no feeling. If i didn't care and it was purposeful then it wouldn't be so bad,. but i hope you get what i'm saying, is that it's nicer to be able to make the choice to care. Or not."