I'm Not Going to Give Up on Myself

The night before my sentencing I was in a county jail. They had me I wasn't suicidal but I was clearly anxious because I could get anywhere from 10 to life and whatever I got with no parole. The only way out of that is a press presidential pardon and that's not going to happen. In fact, it was another three or four months before I kind of figured out the legalities that I would do 18 and a half if I stayed out of trouble. "I became radically dedicated to personal transformation and also showing up in that world"