The Experience of Shinnata Is What John of the Cross Describes as the Dark Knight of the Soul

i think when we experience that emptiness that sort of free fall like what the hell you know even ask him a question like yeah well why do we suffer why do we have this sense of just that is better it's yukka itself. i can see how there would be a sense of wanting to not just alleviate yourself of all the things that go along with being self-identified but other people too who could see this as some kind of seed of neurosis or and an antidote to that so i did not feel i did i did feel the uh not in a sense of freefall but just more of a sense of liberation or something went away  when i blabbered about it it