The Relational Aspects of the Semaphoric Experience

i had a lot of chaotic relational stuff going on at the time, em, with my long distance partner in stuff. A few days in, and i immediately got like a fever and s and like had to go lie down for like a day and a half. And from then on, like, for several months, i had quite a lot of like, joyous energy. If i sort of paid attention to the back of my spine, back of my neck, i would feel this, like energy rushing up it. It was not only changing the way my body was, but also changing what i believe about the world.