Are You Really Searching Openly?

When I speak to a Christian and I say, look, I'm just not convinced of this. But in order to deny that premise, we have to accept that God would be willing to allow somebody to desperately search for him or her. So maybe non-resistant non-belief does occur, but then we have to explain why it is the God's highest his face from so many people. These are the two main reasons, of course; they fail. It seems quite strange. If you just awoke with this conviction, what would you do? What could you do? You could go to church, but you just don't feel it. And yet you find yourself still, as Shakespeare