How Do You Write for Yourself?

I realize that how should a person be in motherhood. And even tickner, my book before hi, should christon be and pure color, all were written in some sense to improve my relationships to specific people in my life. But i also think when you recognized something like that, you can never do it again. So in i didn't recognize that for 20 years. And then once you recognize it, you recognize it because it's it's in the past. I would like to try to write a book that is just in relation to myself, you know, that isn't so desperate. That impulse had led me to write all those books. You have a very complex and difficult