Do You Feel Loved When You're Quiet With God?

I used to get so mad when my husband interrupted my devotage. I wanted to experience something different with god, cause oftentimes i would come out of my quiet time, or my devotion time with god, and still feel anger right afterwards. It was ritualistic. Was something that i was trying to do to check something off on my box. But did it actually change me? Like, did i actually feel loved by god in that instance? Or did i out feeling like i had a longer to do lhis now i got to treat everybody right and hav pec? Instead of just allowing the holy spirit to invite me into a space where he just wants to be with bree